Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Conflicted Emotions

Personal frustration: my knee hurts. It has been hurting since Sunday's long run. Now lunging creates soreness. I might not train for the MCM. Yet more healing time is needed.

Happiness: Reading "Hamlet." My 11th graders asked to read it for our last novel of the year, and since the 12th grade teacher isn't planning to teach it, I heartily agreed. I love "Hamlet" - it's my favorite Shakespeare play.

Personal irritation: I am so tired of getting my hopes up only to see them crashing down (one case in point: see personal frustration). I have no place in which to direct my frustration except at myself, which is not good. Sometimes I think I have too many pipe dreams and become upset when the pipe travels further away from reality. Sometimes I wish I weren't as emotional. While I seem pretty straightfaced on the outside, trust me, my internal emotions work overtime. Sometimes I wish I were more stony, more of an icy person. Sometimes, actually oftentimes, I wish I were recluse, left alone with my books and journals.

But upon further thought, I might be PMSing, which makes sense because my emotions turn into rollercoasters for a couple of days.

I might not post for a few days.

Back to "Hamlet"...

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