I'm Ok

I'm good. My brain has taken over and I can see things more clearly and put things in perspective.

What makes me irritated is that I fell for what he was saying - probably because his actions supported his words, which is something I haven't really had. And I saw the baggage he came with - I really did - but I ignored it. Luckily, I can see that the baggaged was/is pretty extensive, and that is what makes me feel better.

So, the lessons learned with this relationship?
1) I do not have to put up with excessive baggage. I can, but I don't have to. I shouldn't have to, especially when that baggage prohibits a future that I really want. And especially if that baggage caused self-esteem issues. Dating someone with self-esteem issues is exhausting!
2) I know how I wanted to be treated. When it was good, it was great and that's how I want future relationships to be like.
3) I do not have to settle. I do not have to put up with flaws. If something bothers me, it bothers me for a reason.
4) I am worth the best.
5) If a relationship gets rocky due to work or something that I've been wanting for years... look at it with a critical eye and to never back down on my dreams. I've had some dreams longer than I've had relationships!

BTW - I've decided to replace tequila with a glass of milk and some chocolate-mint Bailey's. Tasty!

8 weeks until DC! And a trip to NY! And the road trip!

Cheers!