Sometimes...

Sometimes I wish I didn't give this blog address to certain people.
Sometimes I wish I could be more honest with myself and others.
Sometimes I wish I could get over the past and look towards the future more.
Sometimes I wish I didn't fear as much as I do.
Sometimes I wish I could just move out of the country and start over.
Sometimes I wish I managed my time better.
Sometimes I wish I was a recluse.
Sometimes I wish I was more sociable.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so hard on myself.
Sometimes I wish I told people how I really feel about them.
Sometimes I wish I didn't fear their reactions.
Sometimes I wish I could ignore people more.
Sometimes I wish I could ignore myself more.
Sometimes I wish I didn't try to please people as much as I do.
Sometimes I envy my friends.
Sometimes I'm glad I'm not them.
Sometimes I just want to slap some sense into people.
Sometimes I want to slap sense into myself.
Sometimes I wish I was a bit cleaner.
Sometimes I wish I was happier.
Sometimes I wish I didn't inflict pain upon myself intentionally.
Sometimes I wish I could cut certain people out of my life.
Sometimes I wish I would act more on my wishes. :)
Sometimes I wish I was a size 6.
Sometimes I'm glad I'm not.
Sometimes I enjoy my job.
Sometimes I wish I could quit my job and be a writer.
Unfortunately that would require me winning the lottery or marrying a self-sufficient man, neither of which is probable.
Sometimes I wish I stood up for myself more.

Sometimes never goes away.

Not even when it's time for bed.

Goodnight.